The good things I have done for the year 2009.

I quit my first job.

Bought a LX 3

Bought a Mac Book Pro

Became a BodyShop Member

Spent a lot more time with my grandparents

Became bolder on the piano and guitar

Stopped hating.


The things I want to accomplish in 2010.

Have all the love in the world in me (is that possible?)

Love You like I never knew I could.

Obey You because I always said I would, but I have not.

Listen.

Ride a motorbike (like a pro); if not in Singapore, at least in Nam Kem.

Not be bound to anything.

Live.

Next year I turn 25. It will go uphill from here.

1) Today's problems come from yesterday's "solutions."
2) The harder you push, the harder the system pushes back.
3) Behavior will grow worse before it grows better.
4) The easy way out usually leads back in.
5) The cure can be worse than the disease.
6) Faster is slower.
7) Cause and effect are not closely related in time and space.
8) Small changes can produce big results...but the areas of highest leverage are often the least obvious.
9) You can have your cake and eat it too ---but not all at once.
10) Dividing an elephant in half does not produce two small elephants.
11) There is no blame.

"We are not ants. We are not so faithful, or so disciplined. We cannot continue with our work without some assurance of how it fits with other, larger things. Humans need a resonance. This can be an affirmation, or it can be a reasoned debate. But silence, the stonewall of stock replies in smug tones of "we know best", kills the human will to action. I realize this. Yet I am powerless to defy its gravity."

- This is not a reflection of how I'm currently feeling, but, a para that I extracted from Simon Tay's "City of Small Blessings". I've came across many sections in this book where he has been able to encapsulate many emotions I felt like I've experienced before.

kindness among those who know each other and deal with each other daily is another thing all together. it is a sun that rises each morning. logic tells us there are no guarantees. philosophers tell us to savor the moment, seize the day. yet something in each of us expects, expects it until we are no longer expectant, hopeful, and awed at sunrise. we only wake after too little sleep, when the sun is already up and the alarm startle us.

today was sherry hour. i was told that i was sorely missed, and yes, i was nostalgic when i thought about the nice plush couches that we sit around for hours at end over wine and tiger beer.

incidentally, the institute also had its happy hour and it was nice and cozy. the Lord takes away, but the Lord gives. Gives. Gives.

i'm at a happy place right now, and I cannot be more thankful

john 3:30